Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Stepping Into the Unknown

Okay, so. Next month is the first ever Aiming Low Non-Conference and I'm going. ALONE.  I can't think of the last time I've done something like this.  Wait....  It was.... NEVER!!  I NEVER do stuff like this ALONE.  I usually drag someone along with me because I like having a built-in person that I know. Someone to talk to.  For an Introvert like me, getting on a plane to go someplace full of people I don't know is so far out of my comfort zone, I can't even begin to imagine I can see it from where I'm sitting.  

I was on the phone with TWH earlier confiding how the thought of this actually makes my stomach hurt a little.  I'm kind of a dork y'all.  Okay, I'm a really big dork y'all.  I've said before that I suck at small talk. I'm also the queen of the Random, Ill-Timed, Inappropriate Thing To Say.   I am so afraid that I'll be the chubby loser in the weird looking clothes sitting in a corner just waiting for someone to talk to me because I'm damn near incapable of starting a conversation on my own.  Sort of like High School when I was the really skinny, gangly, bespectacled, buck toothed loser in the weird clothes sitting in a corner waiting for someone to talk to me.  Because I was incapable of starting a conversation on my own then too.

If you're going to Non-Con and you see me sitting around looking a overwhelmed and maybe about to cry, bring me a Vodka & Cranberry & say "Hi". Once the ice is broken, I can take it from there.  

The first step is always the hardest.

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  1. 1. What is Non-Con?
    2. Where are you going?

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  2. Mama! I am so sad to not be going with you!

    But you just stop that right now. You will have an amazing time. And you will meet wonderful people and come back so happy that you went.

    I just wish I could be your roomie. Le sigh...

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    1. Oh Mama!! I SO wish you could be there too!! The first conference you're able to go to, tell me and we'll blow that mofo up!!

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  3. Repeat of FB post:

    This is true - anxiety and worry only make wrinkles and upset your stomach and cause your metabolism to get screwed up and....
    The Bible says "Do Not Worry...."
    MUCH easier said than done, but once it clicks with you - it will make your life soooooo much easier! I know because it has helped me.

    Matthew 6:

    25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?

    28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

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    1. Julie, that made me feel so much better!! Thank you so much. Love you!!

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  4. Well.. JulieU, you have said it all and unbeknownst to you given me exactly what I needed to hear at this exact moment.. Thank you. Mouthy, you'll be fine. ;)

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    1. I'm skeptical about my level of "Fine" but if you say so... :)

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  5. " I am so afraid that I'll be the chubby loser in the weird looking clothes sitting in a corner just waiting for someone to talk to me because I'm damn near incapable of starting a conversation on my own. Sort of like High School when I was the really skinny, gangly, bespectacled, buck toothed loser in the weird clothes sitting in a corner waiting for someone to talk to me."

    That SO describes how I feel! I remember in high school that if I didn't have someone to eat with, I'd grab a pack of crackers and a Coke and go sit in the band room and eat them rather than have anyone see me sitting alone. To this day I wonder if people are making fun of me for what I have on, what I look like, etc.

    However, I have also made some small strides and attended things by myself. You can do this. Your stomach will quit hurting once you get there. Granted, it'll be an anxious morning, but don't give in to the anxiety. You'll find someone to talk to and you'll be glad you did this! I look forward to hearing how things go.

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    1. I spend a lot of my time trying to act like I fit in. Like I belong wherever I am.
      Having said that, I'm going to Georgia. Alone. There's got to be ONE person I can talk to. The trick is finding that ONE.

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    2. There will be lots and lots and lots of people wanting to talk to you.

      Watch for the person who is sitting in the corner alone and go help her to not feel the way you do ;) She needs you.

      xxoo
      JulieU

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  6. You are amazing! Here you go - download this to your iPod - its 45-60 minutes and will change your life.

    http://www.gracebiblechurchparkway.org/audio/20090823am_jbarber_anxiety.mp3

    xxoo
    JulieU

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